Starting a New Year
Tuesday, January 01, 2019
This has certainly been an up and down year for me as it has been for others. The loss of a good friend, a beloved uncle-in-law and an older sister. My good friend died early in the year from heart problems. She had had a lung transplant 2 years ago which was successful, but heart issues were her final problem. The uncle-in-law had married us 53 years ago. He was 92 and still had a sharp mind. My sister died 2 weeks ago on Dec. 17th. She had a glioblastoma brain tumor diagnosed on Sept 26th after returning from a cruise through the Panama Canal. The progression of this tumor was very fast. We were sure she would live through Christmas but died on the 17th, 2 days before the anniversary of our Mother's death on Dec. 19th, 2004. The 17th also happens to be my daughter-in-law's birthday.
But we grieve and must look forward because looking back wastes precious time. So we had the best Christmas we could and I must say we recalled happy memories. Both of our sons and family were here. One has left and the other leaves tomorrow with his family. We have enjoyed them and the grandchildren. However, I am ready to start a new year with a plan in place and motivation to begin it tomorrow. I have to take time to execute my sister's will and divest of her estate but that will fall into place.
For now, I am determined to take ME time and do what I have to do. NO...do what I want to do for myself. I'm not going to feel bad not doing something someone requests of me, if it interferes with my plan. I need to get some good habits going. I have missed my exercise and healthy eating. There has been a lot of emotional eating happening.
I'm going to use that emotional energy for putting habits into place. I'm going to try to at least blog a couple of sentences every day. This will be hard for me, as I am not one to put my feelings and thoughts our for others to see or read.
Here's hoping for a good start to what I hope is a better year.
Happy New Year to all.