Reboot Day 44
Friday, December 28, 2018
Man, I really can not wait for this year to end. This past week was very trying for my stress level. Although I did all my exercises, it wasn't enough to lose anything. But Stress had a HUGE factor in it.
My 88 yr old mom had been diagnosed with Stage 4 renal failure and cardio-renal disease. Her life expediency has been shortened to 2 months as of this past Thursday. She was diagnosed with this this past June and at that time was only given 3-6 weeks. She surpassed that. But started having complications this past week and ended up in the hospital once again. The hospital doctors said, without dialysis her life expediency is not long. It's been a real struggle. I want to be with her, but it seems like I keep getting sick, (due to kids passing their funk around), and I can't get to her. I have 2 other sisters who are helping but I want to be there.
Also, this past week both my 3 yr old and myself ended up with viral gastroenteritis. The little one was taken to the ER because of severe lower stomach pain and fever and was down for 2 days. I was down for 4 days. Was not fun. My mom makes me feel guilty because she wants to see my family and I but I don't want to risk making her worse. I understand she is older and ill, but I could never live with myself if what I exposed her to was what causes her demise. I am wanting to prolong her life as long as possible. It's been really difficult. And not being able to see her every day has been hard.
I have to remember that I still have to focus on my own health and make sure I stay on top of it or I won't be any better than my mom. All I can do at this point is pray, exercise and eat right. Then as soon as I can and well enough, I can be back to helping my mom.
Sorry for the sad blog, but the only way to relieve stress is by talking about it. Thank you for reading and have a wonderful day.