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Wednesday, December 12, 2018

I'm back at the beginning. I don't know why I keep doing this. People keep bringing in Christmas treats, and I keep eating them, and eating them, and eating them. I keep telling myself I'll quit after the holidays. Yeah, right, until the next holiday. I'm at 205 again, if not more. I dare not get on the scale right now. I've been working out but that only does so much good.



I typed this up and taped it to my kitchen cabinet. I think I have things put up all over my work area, the 3rd step prayer, stuff about "flipping one's lid" (downstairs brain/upstairs brain), eating crappy food isn't a reward it's a punishment, excuses don't burn calories, and general A.A. stuff - I have all of the tools yet I don't use them. I feel hopeless again.

This is how I WANT TO FEEL -



I want to feel sore, and healthy, not sluggish and fat.



I want to get rewards - and I would if I'd stop failing to do what I keep saying I'll do!



P.S. I heart Parks & Rec.
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  • PROVERBS31JULIA
    @Buttonpopper1 maybe just take a small slice or bite, enjoy it, and then donate food to whatever food charity is around in Japan (homeless etc)? I don't know if there are any official programs, but I understand that the Japanese do have a lot of customs that are quite a bit different and so they could take offense at something that wouldn't bother us at all...

    I can't remember if you go to the Y, Stephanie, or which one - think it was farther south. Oh wait, it was Planet Fitness... yea... well I was on the Livestrong Program for a free 12 week membership at the Y and then hubby just said rejoin the Y since he is employed again. But would be fun to just designate a time and a day of the week when any of us here in town can meet to just walk a mile or two (or more if a person wanted). With the days so dark early now it's tricky to plan, and Mall-Walking might be a little too crowded and distracting (all those food courts don't help, either!).

    Julia
    315 days ago
  • KPHEALTHY4LIFE
    It is difficult. Your HP can help you.
    315 days ago
  • BUTTONPOPPER1
    Stephanie, I'm sorry you've been having trouble. It is so hard to stay motivated, especially when you're surrounded by high-calorie treats. This is the gift-giving season in Japan (not Christmas, but what they call year-end giving), and my husband keeps receiving big boxes of cookies and puddings from his business associates. It's driving me crazy! I want to tilt these boxes right into the trash, but I'm not the only person in the house, and it would be rude to the giver to just throw away the gift. But I sure would like to just toss 'em!

    I pray both you and I can find the strength and persistence to get through this, for our own sake and for the sake of those around us. We can't fulfill our life missions if we're living in constant frustration and self-denigration. Truly, I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. This is important!
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    315 days ago
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