No news is not always good news...
Wednesday, December 12, 2018
I'm back at the beginning. I don't know why I keep doing this. People keep bringing in Christmas treats, and I keep eating them, and eating them, and eating them. I keep telling myself I'll quit after the holidays. Yeah, right, until the next holiday. I'm at 205 again, if not more. I dare not get on the scale right now. I've been working out but that only does so much good.
I typed this up and taped it to my kitchen cabinet. I think I have things put up all over my work area, the 3rd step prayer, stuff about "flipping one's lid" (downstairs brain/upstairs brain), eating crappy food isn't a reward it's a punishment, excuses don't burn calories, and general A.A. stuff - I have all of the tools yet I don't use them. I feel hopeless again.
This is how I WANT TO FEEL -
I want to feel sore, and healthy, not sluggish and fat.
I want to get rewards - and I would if I'd stop failing to do what I keep saying I'll do!
P.S. I heart Parks & Rec.