I'm back and 105 pounds lighter.
Tuesday, December 11, 2018
Has it been almost two years? It doesn't seem like it - but sure enough, the last time I posted a Spark Blog was 693 days ago.
I lot has transpired in my life since then. I totally (and I mean totally) walked away from worrying about fitness or even my weight. I let my weight balloon up to 346.7 pounds, and was literally a 'walking heart attack'. Problem was I had convinced myself that since I was 64, it was going to be impossible to do anything about it, and was resigned to the fact that I would be obese for the rest of my life.
Fast forward to today. I weighed in at 241.8 this morning - I have lost almost 105 pounds - and I'm not done yet - my goal is to get to 196 pounds - nothing magical about that number, except that will mean that I will be back to a 'normal' BMI for my height. With only 46 pounds to go, I am beginning to realize that I will be able to achieve this goal - it's not a question of if, but when - I think I will get there by late March or early April.
By now, many of you reading this may be thinking - 'OK, so what changed? What motivated you?'
It started with a really embarrassing 'wake up call' from one of the few people I 'had' to listen to - not my wife, but someone in my supervisory chain. I got a call into his office, where he laid it out straight to me - he was concerned about my 'personal hygiene' and how it affected the work environment. I was shocked and surprised, and told him I thought my hygiene was fine - then he put it more bluntly: 'You may not be aware of it, but when obese people sweat, sometimes they emit a musty smell that they aren't even aware of. Anyway, you need to do something about it.'
There it was, out in the open. I was being told that I was FAT! and not only that, there was a underlying threat of termination if I didn't do something about it (not sure they could make it stick, but that is a whole other issue).
After I got over the shock of someone being so blunt (except my wife, that has never happened to me before), my first reaction was not to be mad, but acutely embarrassed. If that's how this manager was thinking, I'm sure everyone else probably thought the same. 'Well, I thought, I am NOT going to let anyone discipline me (or even fire me) about my weight'. Additionally, I have plans to do a lot more public speaking soon, and it hit me - no one is going to be interested in any talk given by someone that weighs almost 350 pounds. Like it or not, they will be much more focused on how obese I am than anything I have to say. While I know some people might be offended by that - it is just the reality of the world we live in today. Fat-shaming is still quite accepted in our society, not matter how much those who are obese would like it not to be so.
This motivation spurred me into action. But I had help. I was introduced to a program that made the weight loss easy. I used the Optivia.com 5&1 plan. It is a plan that was developed originally for people like me - someone who was morbidly obese, and had over 100+ pounds to lose'. This plan - originally called 'Medifast' - consists of a very calorie restrictive, nutrient-dense diet that consists of 5 small snacks (called fuelings) spaced out every 3 hours, and one 'lean and green' meal during the day, along with lots and lots of water. While it took a WHOLE lot of discipline, it was very easy to follow, which ensured my success with it. After looking at the science behind the program, I was also convinced that it was safe.
So now I'm 105 pounds lighter and ready to get on with my life. I'm not going to lie - it has been a tough road. But what made the difference? Strong motivation and focus on the end goal - not the problem. I still have 46 pounds to reach my target, and have been tempted more than once to quit - but I am so focused on my goal, I won't quit until I get there. Onward!