Saturday, December 08, 2018
Yesterday morning DH had a health problem and I asked him to report it to the dialysis clinic. I went to work to do some prep, and the clinic called me back. The impression I got from them was worse than I later found to be the real situation. Perhaps they wanted to make sure I would come back and take him to outpatients. We ended up in the ER, because outpatients was closed, with a very unpleasant young doctor who insisted he be hospitalized. DH flat refused and I didn’t yet know that the problem was smaller than the clinic had said. According to Dr. Google, it’s a problem which many people over 40 have without it causing trouble, though if it does, it can be serious. The doctor at the dialysis clinic said his muscular strength is down since his recent long hospital stay. It seems to me that what he doesn’t need is another hospital stay but some work on building his muscles back up.
Today we had lunch in a hotel and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I noticed that with yesterday’s alarm, I completely forgot about our landlord problems. It feels so clear that it’s our thinking about problems that makes them problems - well sometimes anyway. Not exactly a super original insight but very freeing. The landlord problem is just a minor thorn in the side. It would be very troublesome to move but doable. Whether we move or not, there are advantages and disadvantages and we are free to make our choice, something I worked out while thinking over ideas that WATERMELLEN gave me. If DH’s problem reappears, we can deal with it when it does. Because one problem eclipsed the other, and even that one seems manageable, it seemed like one (problem) plus one equals zero. I lightened up my thinking about both.