Saturday, December 08, 2018
So 165.9 165.7 today I'm 165.3
Actually I'm none of those, I am a child of God I am a woman I am African-American I am lovely I am capable I am fit I am blessed! And I'm going to bust out of these 160s with vengeance! I've been sick and tired of being sick and tired for a minute now. I gained weight because I was afraid of what other people were saying about my body. Now I know that was stupid a waste of time and narcissistic of me. Me worrying about what other people think about me or my body shows Pride on my part. I will be my fittest healthy yourself no matter what naysayers have to say no matter how I feel about what naysayers have to say. I've been 160 I've been in the 170s I do not like my clothes fitting tight I do not like feeling large. Yes I've maintained a huge amount of weight loss. And my biggest amount of weight I carried around is being self-conscious. I see that now I'm very clearly I was 144 lb in I was enjoying it until I let my pride allow other people to break me down. And when I see pride I'm talking about thinking about myself too much instead of enjoying the miracle God gave me. I won't make that mistake this time. I'm grateful to have a do-over. I will be in a bikini. And I will pay it for it to help other people get past their junk to live their best life.