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Mental illness

Friday, December 07, 2018

Shared this with my husband and OA sponsor. This is where I'm at right now.

“I don’t know how familiar you are with mental illness, if that is part of your story, or if you have someone you know who suffers from it but for me, it feels like I’m in the middle of a dark, dreary downpour. It’s cold, it’s wet, I don’t like it one bit. This lasts for a while and then I’ll get a bit of sunshine, a little bit of warmth on my face, and I can peek out from behind the clouds. I try to stay here but then it starts to drizzle again. Just a little light rain, still warm, not too heavy. Sometimes I can push through this and I burst into bright sunshine for a short period of time. If I can’t push through it, it escalates into another downpour, cold, wet, miserable. This is my life, repeat indefinitely. That’s the only way I know how to describe it.”
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    Hi Stephanie -
    years ago I went to a Lunch and Learn program at the "Center for Improvement of Human Functioning" (which is now known as Riordan Clinic. Or if you listen to my son, it's "TellytubbyLand". Roll Eyes.). Dr. Hugh Riordan did a lot of his earlier training or researching on nutritional supplements that help deal with mental illness and the specific program I went to was addressing Schizophrenia, ADHD/ADD, Bi-polar, OCD - and the common theme there was a lack of vitamin C, many of the B vitamins, Zinc, Magnesium and maybe a few others. I was trying to see if that video was online but not finding it (I think I went in around 2003-05 and most of the videos I did find were newer.).

    These videos are also hosted on YouTube so there's a chance I could find it there. I'm pretty certain I heard from Dr. Riordan himself, because I remember that he died just a few years later. I don't think any of these videos featured him speaking, but there were several that the titles make me think they will cover the same ground.

    I also gain some benefit from a SAD light - found one on sale online and I think they have bigger models now (stronger light panels). It's a form of light therapy... although realistically, as mild as the last few winters have been, there's no reason why I shouldn't be going outside in the middle of the day! (shame on me!!!!).

    Sooo we're not alone, but we do need to reach out and try to make contact soon!! I don't know what Jae's schedule is like either @simply_jae - but Tuesdays 10:30-11:30 am I have a group training at the Y, now that the Livestrong program is over. My Vitamin C treatments I can set them at will - I have been going more in the mid day just because a) I don't go to bed early enough to get up early for an early morning treatment and b) not as many people are there over lunch hour. But that can be tweaked from week to week.

    305 days ago
    So sorry you have to live through such darkness, Stephanie. Mental illness is a huge test, whether it's your own illness or that of someone close to you. I think both I and my daughter are greatly burdened by a certain level of mental and emotional struggles. I know you're describing pain here, but your language is beautiful, and I'm glad you have interludes of light. My daughter describes her illness as having been given only black and white crayons while all around her people are coloring their lives with a full box of crayons.

    It's hard, but you will prevail and someday be rewarded.
    305 days ago
    Hope you'll find your sunshine!
    308 days ago
  • RAMONA1954
    I'm bipolar depressive. I can relate
    310 days ago
    I deal with Major Depressive Disorder..it is pretty much like you describe it..I have learned taking one day at a time helps..take care and know you are not alone
    310 days ago
    You are not alone. emoticon
    310 days ago
    You're not alone, keep pushing through
    310 days ago
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