Friday, December 07, 2018
Shared this with my husband and OA sponsor. This is where I'm at right now.
“I don’t know how familiar you are with mental illness, if that is part of your story, or if you have someone you know who suffers from it but for me, it feels like I’m in the middle of a dark, dreary downpour. It’s cold, it’s wet, I don’t like it one bit. This lasts for a while and then I’ll get a bit of sunshine, a little bit of warmth on my face, and I can peek out from behind the clouds. I try to stay here but then it starts to drizzle again. Just a little light rain, still warm, not too heavy. Sometimes I can push through this and I burst into bright sunshine for a short period of time. If I can’t push through it, it escalates into another downpour, cold, wet, miserable. This is my life, repeat indefinitely. That’s the only way I know how to describe it.”