I decided to blog tonite because I have been at my wit's end. No reason that I can think of. Most of you know or remember when I came back months ago after my sepsis infection journey. I am still thanking the Lord for bringing me BACK. But something changed. I had gotten down to the weight I wanted to be and that would be between 120 bs. and 125 lbs. (Remember I had shrunk a few inches in the process of that year).
But I came home at 142 lbs. And I am NOT happy with it. But it seemed no matter what I did, I could not stay with it. I tried to remember what I did a couple years ago that worked then but isn't now. Well, most of you will also remember that I ate only basically veggies. I have never actually learned "moderation". Now recently, I have begun to be very disgusted with my situation. All I could think of was WHAT AM I DOING WRONG???? What am I missing from my old successful battle with the weight and what I am doing now.
Well, tonite, out of the blue, I started looking for answers. Now, I'm not saying I found ALL the reason for the difference in now vs before.
Just to recall my bout with sepsis, it is a nasty disease.
Anyone that does not know about sepsis, here is a link to find out:
An important part of the sepsis infection is loss of memory. That's where I am right now. It gradually gets better and better but it is a timely progression and takes from months to 1.5 years. My short term memory is still affected. We ate out with some friends today and when we got home I told John how nice the day was. BUT I couldn't remember my girlfriend's name. Denice. It took me many minutes to come up with it. SIGH
But that's not what I want to tell you. I'm on my road to recovery and losing weight. All of a sudden today it popped into my head how my first weight loss with spark about 2 years ago I believe, I remembered that when I didn't want to eat anything more, I would BRUSH MY TEETH! It worked all the time. I brush my teeth and use whitening mouthwash after and then I know that I am DONE. And I am still feeling that now. IT WORKS for me anyway.
I have more hope than I have in a long time. I will keep you posted and report in.
Back to memory lots of people are praying for me and it IS getting better so I am hoping by next summer or so I will have my memory back totally. That is what I have read anyway.
Thanks for listening and I will keep you informed of the progress!