Tuesday, December 04, 2018
OK life wants to keep throwing hurdles. But I say you won't trip me an if you do I won't be down long 😂. So I got to figure a budget. I am writing this cause I need to get this stuff out perhaps I should figure if I can make this private then I can truly be free. I am thinking as I type. I don't won't anyone to read this and think me all negative because I am usually predominantly a positive person. But today was rough. I went to see my Dr an he went over my test results with me an we we discussed what he has decided to do. You see I have reflex sympathetic dystrophy/complex regional pain syndrome. An the night before I left to go to bama my Dr called my labs came back bad. They also show I have a rheumatic disease. In this case sever rheumatoid arthritis. So every thing wrong with me is painful non curable. Yep life 😂. So today we went over the plain to help me. I am staying on mega dose of steriods as my tb tine test needs to be read an I need a chest exray. So in meanwhile I am going to get on steriods and there gradually going to be tapered down. He is also changing out one of my meds and increasing another these changes needs to take place before he can add the newest med. An that med long years ago use to be a med used in treating cancer. Now it is still used for cancer but they discovered it helps rheumatic diseases and do to it being such a strong and dangerous med I will be going in to see the Dr every Monday for the next few months. It's not a med that can be giving an not monitored. That's why I am worried about my budget. I thank goodness for medicaid cause I think it's a very expensive medicine. But I gotta pay $6 a week to go to see Dr an get home. So any way like I said today rough. Tomorrow is gonna be long an not so easy also. I got my pain drs appointment. An with riding para transit bus it ends up being almost a whole day to go to that one appointment. Then day after I gotta see oral surgeon. Yep trying to get my appointments all caught up an I think I am running over myself doing it 😂. BTW I was weighed today at Drs office I have gained about 5lb after being on the steriods. Yesh go figure. But I promise myself if I came back my focus couldn't be on my weight but more on the support I know I will get here I am hoping with time my life with calm down again an at that point I can focus more on weight lost who maintain that loss. OK I gotta go I am sleepy an I got to get up early tomorrow again. Night y'all an sorry if you read this I know it takes no seance it's a jumble of my thoughts I just needed to unload from my brain 😂. Night 🌃 y'all sweet dreams.