Sunday, December 02, 2018
I went completely off the rails yesterday and I am paying for it hardcore today. I ended up spending the night on the couch because I had heartburn so bad I thought I was going to throw up. That has not happened in a while since I started eating better. I made it 5 days this time and did really well on my calories and macros but yesterday was a train wreck. First Burger King which put me at 1600 or so by the time I had that and breakfast then I went to lunch with my great-grandma and had Banh Mi and two Vietnamese coffees then we went to our friend's house for Friendsgiving and I can't even tell you all the things I ate. My addiction was running the show at this point. I know there was a big piece of cake and several pieces of mini cheesecake, another Vietnamese coffee (which is actually three servings) and macaroni and cheese, a roll, green bean casserole, Coca-Cola, Diet Coke, etc. I woke up this morning feeling like I was going to hurl but attempted to go to the gym anyway and they are doing an army fit test so the Y is absolutely packed and I have a severe headache and feel like I'm going to throw up so I headed back home and I'm going to eat healthy today, drink a lot of water, and then get my behind in the gym first thing in the morning, no excuses. I thought I'd hit rock bottom but apparently not. This is way worse than anything I've ever experienced due to food and I feel miserable. I won't be doing this again, God willing. I would not wish this on my worst enemy and my worst enemy is myself.