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Saturday, December 01, 2018

In the interest of accountability and honesty, I have to talk about this weight creep that is happening with me (and I don’t mean the jerk standing in line in front of me at the grocery store questioning the produce scale...). I am talking about the very slow, yet consistent and insidious increase in weight I have been seeing on my scale. And I am noticing a change in the fit of pants... a sure sign that I need to re-evaluate, go back to basics, to what I know works for me as far as weight loss and weight maintenance go. I believe it’s onekidsmom who calls it her “scream weight”... that point at which it’s no longer just natural fluctuations, but definitely a weight gain trend. I am uncertain if I am eating more because I am depressed and thus unmotivated, or unmotivated because I have gained weight and feeling less like moving because I hurt, and thus I am becoming depressed... a chicken and the egg conundrum I suppose. Between my arthritis and lupus, my pain level is pretty high. Add in the bum shoulder and intermittent migraines and I am a grumpy Gus that is certainly true. Not that pain is a good excuse, merely an explanation for the choices that I have been making of late. And that is what they are... my choices. I have to own them, take responsibility for them, and if I want to change my circumstances then I have to re-evaluate those choices and then make changes! If nothing changes... nothing changes. I know I feel better when I am about 15 pounds lighter than where I am at now. It may not seem like a large number (especially compared to what I lost in the first place!), but with arthritis those 15 pounds can have a significant impact. (For me, I especially feel those extra pounds in my knee joints...). Every day, every meal is a new opportunity to make healthier choices. It just so happens that this is December first... and I go grocery shopping tomorrow. Time to re-evaluate my shopping list and menus! Yep, I KNOW I can do this... I might just need the occasional nudge to stick with it when the winter doldrums get their claws into me...
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  • DESERTDREAMERS
    I finally started on a slow slide down, I’m trying to NOT weigh myself too much. One day last week, I hie 192, yay! Two days later, no changes in exercise and eating, 200. What?! Pants still fitting better, though, so I’ve got that going for me. ...
    14 days ago
  • KATIE5668
    you know how....you know why ..and I believe you will make the best choices for your health and mental well being. Now consider yourself Nudged!!
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    15 days ago
  • MAMAMAITAI
    You can do it....it has happened to me more times than I'd like to admit. It is always harder to take off those pounds than putting them on. You sound like you have a good plan. It'll take time, but you can do it! emoticon
    15 days ago
  • BONNIEMARGAY
    A little weepy with empathy about this. What a tough balance it has been for me this year, when sometimes comfort eating is the best I can do for my mental health, and then there are repercussions for my physical health. So much compassion to you, beloved. I look forward to your upcoming posts about delicious foods you will make, and dream of a world in which we could cook for each other in the rough times.
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    15 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    ((((HUGS)))) For sure it's not easy, but getting back to the basics definitely seems like the right thing to do. Sorry you're doing battle w/RA and lupus. Tough situation!!!!!
    15 days ago
  • BJAEGER307
    I feel the same way. I added 7 lbs in the past month, and I'm miserable. I worked so hard to just let them stay there, that I revamped my diet once again, and got back on track. No more a nibble here and a nibble there. Eating what I want, is definitely not good for me. Also hubby has been doing the sugar thing again, and I know he's just as miserable. Time to put a halt to this craziness. Been cutting out what I know I shouldn't eat and I've lost 2 lbs as of this morning. Getting back into the swing of things. Also, sugar is back down within normal limits.

    Do what's best for you, as you know how you feel.
    15 days ago
  • CHERIRIDDELL
    I needed this because I think I am heading the same way the past few days I have made some questionable food choices and I need to evaluate the consequences too or I will be in a world of worse hurt ! At least we can encourage each other !!!!
    15 days ago
  • GARDENCHRIS
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    15 days ago
  • HAPPYSOUL91
    Well consider this a nudge and concentrate on the wonderful month of December. You can address the doldrums in January. emoticon
    15 days ago
  • MBPP50
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    16 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    It's always good to start at the meal plan and go from there. Although I know personally that I have seen 3 - 4 pound weight fluctuations within the past 2 weeks - it is driving me crazy! Just enough to make you second guess what you are doing. Best wishes!
    16 days ago
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