Yes and No and Maybe?
Thursday, November 29, 2018
So, maybe I am beating myself up. And maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm looking at this moment as saying what am I doing wrong? Or I'm looking at it as "maybe I'm worse off than I actually thought I was". All I know, is that I didn't like what I say.
When I tried on my outfits from TrunkClub by Nordstrom, I honestly thought I would look different. But what I saw actually made me sick. I mean, I know I'm overweight. I know I'm pushing 300, but really? Am I really that big? The look I saw in the photos I took as I tried on the clothing just sickened me.
I've got to stop the weight gain.
One thing that happened was that I ran out of one medication, and not on purpose. I had called in for a refill a few days before the Thanksgiving break. Unfortunately, they did not get the message, and my refill was not actually filled for over a week, leaving me without any dosing for a full 5 days.
What happened was not pretty, and I won't get into it, but let's just say I hope that doesn't happen again.
So, the next step is to start clean eating and exercising. Something has to give.