Looking forward with hope :)
Wednesday, November 21, 2018
This morning, I took a walk down memory lane by looking at my Spark awards. The story told by the periods of effort followed by disconnections (usually beginning September with the semester) is that work rules. This is the first time I have been able to maintain effort through September (granted I'm on leave) and it feels great to be still on it in November! Already I have broken a very old cycle where I have to start the new year with regret for falling off the wagon! Major NSV is being able to look forward to January with hope! I know December is still in front of me but for the first time I dare to believe that I can at least maintain my weight through the food fest, parties, and entertaining minefield that form part of our social obligations. I believe I can start the new year as part of the journey that I am already on and this is incredibly validating. This is what real change looks and feels like to me and I am so grateful, both to SP and to my off line support team, to be able to get to this point. So today I am smiling because I know I can do this. One day at a time, one step at a time, day in, day out.