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Tuesday, November 20, 2018

I don’t want to be so hard on myself anymore... After living big disappointments in my life and hiding from life and people for a year, it all turned to me as more and more weights... All i remember is taking pills, sleeping and eating and hiding at home... I stopped the pills, i feel better, but the weights are still on my body, stopping me from living a normal life, as it comes to me as a negative things every-time i want to go out... I don't feel beautiful, i feel heavy, tired, i feel dead... I don't want to do anything, and i have no willing or excitement for the next day. This is like falling to the bottom from the top of the mountain... But i do one thing now... I ACCEPT... I accept it was not my under control, i accept i had an accident, i accept i was doing my best before this all happened, and i accept i have to start from zero, or even from minus again... Sometimes i look around and can’t find a reason to be excited for living the new day, but it i accept, i want to feel healthy and confident every new days... May be nothing will happen in life as i want, i work for or i dream, may be none of my dreams will come true and may be i will lose everything and everyone in life, but even when this all happening i want to feel myself healthy and confident... So i need to start from all over... I accept i hd an accident and been away from life for a while, but with 10 minutes treadmill walk today, i started to make steps...
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    That’s exactly putting your best foot forward. Make a goal of how many steps your willing to challenge yourself and stick with it. Make it small and attainable and then increase it monthly or weekly. Then think about one thing you can change with eating like keeping your carbs under 100 or more vegetables. Make easy attainable goals. I’m so glad to see you back. You are not alone!
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