aaaand two weeks later, the slug emerges from his...umm...not cocoon, because that would imply transformation, maybe hibernation, just ignore the part where winter has yet to really start?
The idea of regularly using this space to throw in through and musings and even the occasional *gasp* feelings has fallen by the wayside, a mere two entries into the experiment. Alas.
Which isn't to say that I, myself, have been a slug the past two week. On the contrary, I'm playing pickleball 2-3 times a week and volleyball 1-2 times a week, so exercise is happening, even if it isn't of the going to the gym and doing gym things variety. I did intend to go to the gym for gym things this evening, but then I saw an e-mail saying that the gym was closed due to a water main break, so that didn't happen. So I'm being a slug, for this night anyway. Maybe I'll do laundry.
In other news:
I enjoy like the fact that you can create a graphical representation of your weight over time, as self-reported to SparkPeople.com. And I do appreciate that it's possible to go back and enter in weights for past dates, which I have been recording for blc purposes, but not necessarily entering into the SP tracker.
I'm down ~20 pounds from this time last year, which is...good. But, it doesn't feel like a win, because I'm aware that I'm at a plateau, where I keep getting down to about the level I am currently, and bouncing hard, to a higher weight, and dropping it back, and bouncing again. Thanksgiving won't help, in that regard. Holiday eating won't help. Keeping on playing sports will, but I'm injury prone, and middle aged now. Not particularly hopeful of losing a significant amount of weight over the next year or so, even if the graph shows that I'm capable of doing that, and in fact have done exactly that in the past year.
Attitude issue? Mental issue? I'm not sure, exactly. It's not that I've ever been what you might call an optimist, but even pessimistic me is getting somewhat annoyed at my pessimism in this regard.
THe conversation goes like this, probably
Me: you can't do it
Also me: shut up, I just did
Me: well, you can't do it again
Also me: I'm done it more than once before
Me: but that was then, and this is now
Also me: but *I* did it, and I am I. Unfortunately you are also I, and you suck
Me: I don't suck, you suck
Also me: Forget you, you (bleep)
Me: you take that back
Also me: nuh-uh. not unless you say I can do it
Me: Well...I'll think about it
Also me: good enough for me...for now