Thursday, November 15, 2018
I have been struggling lately in lots of ways, big and small. My parent has stage IV cancer and apparently it is back with a vengeance, and things are not going all that well, treatment wise.
Meanwhile, this is a busy part of the year for me, and I feel as though I have been taking on more and more work and responsibilities until I might just burst. I feel like I am behind at everything, constantly. So it's time to keep removing things from the pile and (the real trick) not to add any more until I get to a manageable state, and also until I am ready to handle more.
I have been eating my feelings. I have not been consistent about exercise. With all of that comes some guilt, some self-recrimination. But I have also tried to be kinder to myself this time around. Mostly I am trying to give myself more structure so that I can stop thinking about stuff and just do it, during its allotted time, and move on. But yeah, it's been a tough autumn so far.