Day Two - No Sugar
Thursday, November 15, 2018
I have had a headache since yesterday afternoon. I went to sleep with one and woke up with one. I took some aspirin and it took it from a 10 to about a 5 or 6 but it's still there. I am nauseous and have been fighting chest congestion on top of that. I'm seeing the doctor today because I have health insurance, so why aren't I using it? Well, it's still expensive, that's why - but the husband wants me to go and I told him last week if I wasn't feeling better this week I would. So I'm going this afternoon.
A little visual reminder for myself, right above the fruit bowl on my desk. I haven't been too temped to go eat Panera bagels this morning (it's snack day at work) because I feel nauseous, but also I asked myself the 4 questions I'm going to start asking myself:
1. Am I going to be happy with myself after I eat this?
2. Am I really hungry or do I just enjoy the taste or comfort?
3. Is this food what I planned on eating today?
4. Do I need a distraction right now to resist this temptation?
Thanks, Pinterest. I heart you.
I had a good discussion with my therapist yesterday. We talked about my anger, and how it's like an iceberg. All you see is the tip of the iceberg, the anger, and underneath it is everything else that's really going on. She drew it (it's an iceberg if you can't tell).
We are going to start working on acting like a survivor instead of a victim, and turning the negative things I hear and say into positives, all the stuff under the water.