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well i joined the gym

Saturday, November 10, 2018

this afternoon I went down to planet fitness and signed up for my free gym membership. I get all the good stuff like massage chairs and such. I don't see myself needing the tanning beds but it is nice to know they are there. I am starting on Monday and I will be going Monday through Friday with the weekends off. even if I only go down there for the massage chairs that gets me out of the house for a few hours a day. I will start slow but I need to build up my legs and my core. ever since I got the shots in my back last week I haven't needed my pain pills as much.

My roommate is out of the house for who knows how long. He cracked a rib and his back. I know I am going to sound like a bitch but I hope he doesn't come back. he is always having a fit when things aren't the way he likes. He rents a room this in my place and he treats me like I am some kid there to wipe his butt. starting Monday I am going to find a place on my own that I can afford on my own and the first rule will be set up is NO ROOMMATES. after my boyfriend died I was lost and I didn't know what to do so I got a roommate until I can save some money, well best-laid plans. the roommate only pays his rent but he is expecting me to buy all the food, pay the power bill and the cable bill. he rents porn on the tv and then has me pay for it because he can't this month. then he is hitting on me all the time and I have told him, no I have forgotten how many times and he still tries. I don't want a boyfriend or have one night stands or anything right now. everyone tells me. I need to get back on the horse but after 16 years with a man the controlled me. I don't need it anymore.

I am sorry if I am venting but I wish my friends to stop telling me what I should or what they would do. I want time to be me. I have taken care of everyone else for most of my adult life with always putting myself on the back burner. I have been on the back burner so long I have forgotten what I want. starting tonight Amanda comes first. if my roommate comes back he can pay his half of the bills or get out. I am not his wife, his girlfriend or mother.

I guess this would be a bit of my declaration of independence.
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  • LARKDC
    Good for you! Concerned you have emotional abuser as renter/ housemate- any way to check with lawyer - legal aud clinc to break the arrangement and get a different roomate - maybe another woman? Having someone undermining your independence and life is a harsh place to be. I am so happy you are going to gym and able to focus on your strength and well being. You have friends here keep safe and get stronger!
    9 days ago
  • SLIMMERJESSE
    Good for you Amanda. Enjoy the gym.
    9 days ago
  • YMWONG22
    emoticon emoticon
    9 days ago
  • PEYTKAM
    It's okay to vent. Better days are coming. Hang in there.
    9 days ago
  • AOKDIET21
    Thanks for sharing. Venting here helps. As a stranger to you but I am concerned you are a. Sharing a place, b. Being emotionally, physically and financially abused by a male roommate c. I slept in car & got help w/o$ or job d. Worst end ur ?
    9 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    that is a good start. now, you need to set up your training program.
    9 days ago
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