Monday, November 05, 2018
I really cannot behave as if my weight has nothing to do with anything other than an extra cookie because...they're good. For me, that is utter crap, and maybe will contribute to an extra ten pounds a year, not 30-50. This is not some superficial habit. Something hurts in unbearable ways, and until that is resolved, this yo-yo business is going to continue. For me, that's the deal. I hate it, I'd love to say it's some superficial dumb habit, but it isn't. It's got roots that I hate, and they are hard to dig up, but I am digging. Still.
This ends at some point. Because there's no way the next half of life is going to be the same as the first.