MY new year
Thursday, November 01, 2018
The plan was to start out small and then come the first of the year I was going to fully start my healthy lifestyle. Yesterday while rushing to get Halloween decorations up, in the rain I might add, I was thinking about my health. I don't want to wait and plus my "new year" technically starts today. I wanna start out my 36th year right. I'm not just talking about my health but me as a person. I'm the type that will see something on the floor and think, "I'll pick that up the next time I go through" or "I'm tired, I'll do the dishes tomorrow". Well starting today I'm going to keep the house looking clean as if we are expecting guests any second.
I'm tired of living like a slob. I have that I can care less type attitude and that's really not how I am. It's a confidence thing so I think, NO, I know that If I start being the person I really wanna be I will build up that confidence and be happy with things and actually believe in myself for once.
Last night I fixed some chili so that when we came in from the rain we would have a hot bowl of chili ready for us. I love my chili !! I fixed my bowl and it was a little more wet than usual so i put more crackers in it. While that made it a full bowl and when I was done I was full. About 40 or so minutes later I go into the kitchen and see some spaghetti left so I finished it off thinking I dont wanna waste the pasta, I hate wasting food. Doing this, I just had myself another FULL bowl of chili. I was so stuffed that when I yawned my stomach would hurt. I was upset with myself because I could have just mixed it with some chili and then put it in the fridge for another day. I ALWAYS do this and yet I never learn. I always tell myself that Im eating a lunch for another day. Im not hungry, just greedy. Above I said that I hate wasting food, well in a way I am wasting food. Eating when you aren't hungry means you are "throwing away" a meal for another day.
A few days ago I did some yard work and it was a full body workout. I felt it in my thighs, arms, and shoulders the next day. I did hurt my arm just below the wrist and I was just thinking that when its better I can go to the gym. Well I just slammed that down and said, NO. Even though my arm is a little sore I can still go to the gym and do cardio. This is something else I do. I search for excuses. NO MORE!
My goal is to have this year be the year I change. I have a lot to work with and I know it will be difficult but if I stick with it a year from now I will look back to today and see just how much I have grown and changed. This will give me the confidence that I feel that I have never had before.
This will be my year