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Dirty 30 and Starting Over

Wednesday, October 31, 2018

I turn 30 years old today. I still remember being young enough to think that 30 was incredibly mature and adult, yet here I am now and DO NOT feel like I thought being 30 would be like!! But maybe it's the kick in the butt I've needed these last few weeks.

I was on a roll there for a while. And then midterms started creeping up and my life became consumed by studying for the weeks working up to the big tests. I had no time to cook proper meals between work and class and study, no time for the gym - these tests are worth 30-40% of my final grades and are crucial to my success.

And now I've gained 5 lbs (I'm hoping mostly water weight but ugh) and I haven't been to the gym in weeks, or done much more than walk around at work or while doing other things. I know I should get back to it, I know I need to.

But it feels so hard right now. This fall weather just makes me want to curl up in a blanket nest and crawl out again in the spring. I'm exhausted from work and school - and I know exercise and a better diet would improve that, I KNOW - and it seems like an endless cycle at this point.

I'm drinking too much, eating unhealthy foods, binging. I'll admit it, I've made some horrible decisions lately, allowed myself to eat more than is wise amounts of fast food in one sitting, several times a week. Chosen to go home and drink beer on my butt rather than go to the gym.

I have some serious work to do to wrangle myself back into healthy habits again. My train derailed. But it happens I guess... gotta pick myself back up and start over again.
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  • IWANTTOSUCCEED
    I think you have to let up on yourself a bit. Yes, you admitted to dropping the ball. BUT, take a look at how much you are doing. Let yourself relax a bit. As you wrote you know it will be hard to get back to exercise and eating healthy - but I think you will DO IT! It's just not good to be so hard on yourself - it doesn't help you at all. emoticon
    757 days ago
  • INGMARIE
    well, let's start with,,,,,
    Happy Birthday emoticon emoticon then let's kiss this goodbye emoticon LOL

    I will join you in a no drinking week, month? I drink too much wine anyway. emoticon
    758 days ago
  • ONEDOGLVR
    First of all - HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope your 30th year is an awesome year for you. It sound like you know where your problems are and what you need to do to fix then. Now you just need the motivation to do it. I know you can do it. You are strong and smart. You will work out a plan that works with your schedule and you will kick butt! Stay strong! Debbie

    758 days ago
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    Just head to do what is best for you.
    758 days ago
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