Dirty 30 and Starting Over
Wednesday, October 31, 2018
I turn 30 years old today. I still remember being young enough to think that 30 was incredibly mature and adult, yet here I am now and DO NOT feel like I thought being 30 would be like!! But maybe it's the kick in the butt I've needed these last few weeks.
I was on a roll there for a while. And then midterms started creeping up and my life became consumed by studying for the weeks working up to the big tests. I had no time to cook proper meals between work and class and study, no time for the gym - these tests are worth 30-40% of my final grades and are crucial to my success.
And now I've gained 5 lbs (I'm hoping mostly water weight but ugh) and I haven't been to the gym in weeks, or done much more than walk around at work or while doing other things. I know I should get back to it, I know I need to.
But it feels so hard right now. This fall weather just makes me want to curl up in a blanket nest and crawl out again in the spring. I'm exhausted from work and school - and I know exercise and a better diet would improve that, I KNOW - and it seems like an endless cycle at this point.
I'm drinking too much, eating unhealthy foods, binging. I'll admit it, I've made some horrible decisions lately, allowed myself to eat more than is wise amounts of fast food in one sitting, several times a week. Chosen to go home and drink beer on my butt rather than go to the gym.
I have some serious work to do to wrangle myself back into healthy habits again. My train derailed. But it happens I guess... gotta pick myself back up and start over again.