musings on candy
Wednesday, October 31, 2018
I am partaking in the sugar craving challenge and my task today is to journal about sugar cravings. this is a hard time of year for me and I am not sure if that's because that is what is expected or because it actually is. I ran all day yesterday and when I sat down around 10 pm, I dove right into the cookies and candy. i knew I wasn't hungry, but I ate anyway. Once I start, I feel like one more piece. One more piece.
Only one more piece turns into 10. I had gotten off the phone with my husband who is traveling and there were a million things i needed to do and when I am stressed, he can't handle it. He thinks he can, but he can't. then I feel like the person I need to lean on can't handle that responsibility. I turn to junk food. that burst of feel good chemicals make me feel better short term, but not long.
So frustrating when I know what to do, but I lose control in the moment. I need to remember what I tell my students ALL THE TIME--I am the one thing in life I can control.