Wednesday, October 24, 2018
Wow, the days seem to pass quickly now. I turned 60 on the 19th witch made me stop and think alot more seriously about my life, and what goals I'm choosing now.
I read post after post of other Sparkers that have or are closing in on their goals. I sit thinking wow.....been here on Spark for a couple years and am at present probobly my highest ever weight. It's easier to put off what you know needed to be done than just getting up and doing something. I know it all starts with small changes one at a time.
I've had to quit the job I really like after 9 years to go on disability. There are days when the only way to get from one room to another is by using my walker. It's so frustrating. I have at least 100 lbs to loose and o get motivated one day only to do what I've always done the next. I know if I do nothing now there won't be too many years left. I'll end up bedridden. I'd rather die before that happens. Ive seen others my age and older out jogging, or riding a bike and say wow!!! I wish that was me. I have no health insurance. Have looked for past 4 months to no avail. None take preexisting conditions. Can't go see either my primary or cardiologist. I owe them both when insurance was dropped. I only have me right now. I may not be able to control my pacemaker, afib, or congestive heart failure, but I can control my weight. I had one Dr about 3 years ago wanted to replace my left knee. I said no then and am really having painful days now.
I know that every pound I loose will make it easier for my knees, heart, and body in whole.
I don't know my current actual weight but it's got to be around 340lbs. I will post a blog once every 2 weeks to let you know how I'm doing . Ild love comments, suggestions etc. On this journey . Okay, see you in 2 weeks!