My distraction is to write

Wait. Weight. Sometimes I have to work on it, have patience for it. I try to Prepare and plan. Both are adding extra baggage and extra stress. Both can eventually take its toll on my body. This could take months to get results and work so hard and trusting the outcome to be the one I want. Hopefully positive results but need to be prepared for a backlash, results that can go against me and not for me. Every day is another day of choices. Each day I can decide to not take this any further and back away. Or a choice to work through the hurt and pain and endure. This week is another one of more appointments, interviews, testing, questioning, and rehashing. Having to prove guilty! I can look at pictures or even in the mirror of what I’ve done to allow my excess weight, which is hard to accept but guilty. Waiting for the weight to come off requires action just as waiting for the evidence to get a conviction requires action.