It Helps If You Can Breath
Thursday, October 18, 2018
Saturday night I went to Target to look for one of those body pillows that pregnant women use. I'm not pregnant, but I've been struggling with hip pain while I sleep, and had read that those pillows would help ease the pain by leveling out my hips as I sleep (and it is helping).
As I was shopping, I started to have a tightening in my chest. At first I thought it was due to anxiety, but the store was not crowded, so my social anxiety should not have been triggered. But my breathing started to become labored and difficult. So, I hurried up, got what I needed, nd headed home.
When I got home, I used my nebulizer, and of course, got the jitters thanks to the abuterol. And luckily, I was back to breathing normal again. But over the next couple of days, my breathing and chest pains increased, and using the nebulizer became a futile attempt to keep me breathing. By Tuesday, I was scared enough that I went directly to the ER, where I was admitted to get my breathing back under control.
They never fully understood what was happening, other than my airways had become compromised, but not asthmatic. They did determine that I was in the beginning stages of an upper respiratory infection, so I'm now being treated for that, but the fact that something caused me to have trouble breathing scared me. And that a doctor yelled at me for wasting his time, because I was not a true asthmatic.
All he did was make me angry, too. Because what was I to do? Nothing I did at home worked, and the urgent care couldn't do anything else. The ER was the last choice.
In the end, I'm breathing better now, and no more tightness in the chest. I'm now trying to figure out what happened and how to fix it. I have no idea how at the moment. So, I'm just working on the steps first. I'll get there.
In the meantime, I have reset my goals. I'm at 267. And I'm giving myself until May 2020 to get to my goal weight. I start the MMA Kickboxing in 2 weeks (enough time to get over the infection), and I'll start swimming over the next week. I've already started walking, as I was already fit to be tied before I left the hospital. It felt good to get out of the house today. I'm hoping to do that more.
The second full weekend of November, I'm heading up to Northwestern Wisconsin for a personal prayer retreat at a cabin in the wilderness. I'll be gone for 3 days, and plan on spending it unplugged and set free. Hopefully I'll spend time exploring the wilderness around my cabin. And getting to know God again.