More Scale FEAR!! 'Diet Girl' ready to run away!
Tuesday, October 16, 2018
SO my scale is not telling me what I want to see. I even got a new scale because the weight seemed to go up and down. But in the end I am just not losing, by the scale at least. I've lost a bit in size. But my inner "Diet Girl' is too well conditioned to believe that the Scale Number is the truth. I know, like you know, all the truth of this BUT it's brought up my fears. And in those fears, I am, as a friend says, 'gathering shadows.'
I had regained weight lost last year. I told my doctor I was going back to Keto and she said that was a good plan for me, but she said she didn't want me to be disappointed if it was harder to lose weight at my age and that I might not lose my belly fat easily, if at all, because in addition to my age, she thought it was very connected to stress. I have an ongoing stressful situation in my life and even though I try to manage my stress, there is much I cannot manage in the situation and I know I am just stressed a lot of the time.
I tried to not let that info get in too deep. After all, I lost weight just last year, so why should 70 be more difficult than 69?? But as the scale seems to be stalled, I have felt the fears arise. And with the fear are the sabatoging messages, 'I'm depriving myself and not losing. I may as well give up. I can have a little treat to feel better' and so on and so forth.
So I am here at Spark telling my story and hope it will let those feelings out and dissipate, at least for now or maybe once and for all. As I do, I also made a collage. I googled 'scale fear' and found the great quote about Fear Has Two Meanings. So nice when Google gives you just what you need to hear. Thank you Universe. Thanks Sparkers. I know you understand and don't care if you've heard it before.