Saturday, October 06, 2018
I have regained about 70 pounds from my lowest. This is WITHOUT candy or desserts, visible carbs, or soda. I'm still down about 150 pounds and with those items above I'm sure I'd weigh a lot more.
I was probably too low at my lowest --I loved it though--loved my wrists being rectangular and not oval, loved being able to double cross my legs--loved the easy fashion of this looking better on a slimmer body. I LOVED being normal. I LOVED not looking at chairs and gauging if I could fit. I LOVED hiking. I LOVED pictures. I LOVED how my small tiny reset eyes looked better on a face without too much fat. One of my problems has always been if people mention/comment on my weight I psychologically spiral. i really couldn't take the skinny attention and the comments (good and bad) about my size.
My problem always has been maintaining.
My current thinking: three eleven pounds lost goals. Celebrate at each step. When I get to 33 pounds lost, try maintaining a bit before deciding if I need to lose more. BMI wise I still will. But maybe a pause will let my brain catch up with my body?