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Thursday, October 04, 2018

I had to as we drove to the animal hospital. I looked up and saw something brighter than silver a lining: a giant rainbow right over the animal hospital where we were headed. ‘That’s for Olive’, I thought.
I tried to think of the good things that come from painful ones. Quickly reminding myself that we had 7 years of unconditional love. She was the good thing.
After coming home last week from the hospital for what was a treatable stomach condition, Olive just wasn’t acting quite right. I know her mannerisms. Her sounds. I’m with her all day.
We kept calling the vet with our concerns but were told that this was likely an adjustment period to her new meds. Be patient.
That awful gut feeling though. Ouch.

We brought her back in again and the vet could see the behavior. They decided to do an MRI on her brain which revealed a large brain tumor and swelling in multiple areas of her brain. She was having seizures.

As we pulled into the parking lot at the animal hospital yesterday, I took a deep breath and told myself to keep it together for her in these last moments. We packed her bed to lie in and a blanket so we could spend some time with her.

We were asked if some of the nurses and staff who know Olive could come to say their goodbyes (we said of course). Since Olive was boarded there regularly every time that I went into the hospital for my treatments, she made lots of friends. Many came in individually to spend a moment with her and give her sweet snuggles. She was so loved.

Although Olive’s life was cut much shorter than we would have liked, I was reminded by my DH that she had 3 spinal surgeries at that animal hospital, and recovered 90% of her mobility each time, which was truly remarkable. She was practically a twisty pretzel yoga dog just a month ago.

I thanked Olive for being our special girl, and one last time said our little phrase I used to lull her to sleep with:

You are such a good girl.
You are so loved.
You are so blessed.

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    Oh, Bren,

    I am so very, very sorry to read about Olive.

    Olive has been such a sweet dog and to know that you are without her...

    What an empty space to have in your life.

    I wish I could reach through this computer and just hug, hug, hug you.

    Take care, Bren.

    886 days ago
    Crying as I read your blog. My heart is going out to you.
    Sending you lots of love.
    919 days ago
  • LILIANN400
    I'm so sorry for your loss 😢
    919 days ago
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    I am so very, very sorry for your loss.
    919 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
    emoticon take all the time you need to grieve sweet Olive. I feel lucky to have met her through your blogs.
    919 days ago
    "How lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard."
    Winnie the Pooh

    I am SO very sorry to hear this, Bren. I've always loved your sharing Olive with us... she always made me smile. My thoughts and prayers are with in a more special way than usual.

    919 days ago
    I read this through tears. I am so very sorry and know too well how this hurts. Here is something that gave me some comfort...

    Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears; but, laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you.
    I loved you so .... 'twas heaven there with you.
    - Isla Paschal Richardson

    Big hug.
    919 days ago
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