Thoughts are not facts
Thursday, October 04, 2018
Yep, thoughts are NOT facts. Just because I think something doesn’t make it truth or reality. In fact my thoughts are often erroneous or fantastical, and I have to fact check myself frequently. Unfortunately, those erroneous thoughts often affect emotions. This is where miscommunication and irrational behavior comes from rather frequently (for me, anyways).
Just on a personal, internal level... I am at a fairly stable weight (I dropped weight when I was sick in August, but that is to be expected), but I still have thoughts of what a big person I am, and how I cannot do something due to my weight (despite a preponderance of evidence that says that I can do and accomplish quite a bit... within reason... and that the scale is staying within my personally preferred range). So, those thoughts of incapability and being overweight and just larger than normal are not fact... not reality. They are just thoughts though. I can let them come... and I can let them go again. Thoughts have origins. obviously, in this instance they come from a former reality that I worked hard to change. If I dwell on these thoughts and perceive them as facts I lose touch with the reality of my situation and deprive myself of the satisfaction and positive reinforcement of having achieved something cool. The fact that I lost 50% of my starting weight is pretty awesome (even if I do say so myself). If I allow random thoughts to twist my perceptions away from reality and forget to fact check I am doing myself a disservice... a big one.
I have been working on just letting my thoughts be thoughts... and come and go... like clouds in the sky. I have a tendency to ummm... hoard thoughts and overthink. It’s a control thing. It takes vigilance and constant self assessment to refrain from placing judgment on my thoughts, or evaluating my thoughts for anything other than simple facts. It is so easy to start to judge my thoughts (and often to the negative)... but it is rather freeing to step back and just let my thoughts be thoughts.
I often find it difficult to sit quietly and meditate, being more apt to participate in walking meditations, but I am finding it a touch easier to sit quietly when I am not hoarding thoughts, overthinking, and judging my thoughts. I still enjoy physically active meditation more, but that is a personal preference. Thing is, now I CAN sit quietly and visualize my thoughts as clouds and allow them to come and go, and come and go...
I am not sure how clearly I am expressing the base of the concept I am trying to convey. I find it a difficult concept to convey. We are wired to judge our thoughts and place emotional weight on them. But I find it’s worth the effort to disconnect from the mental and emotional weight and accompanying contortions...