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Not Far Enough

Tuesday, October 02, 2018

I thought I'd take a progress photo today, since my 274 lb photo (my highest weight) was taken professionally at my grandmother's 95th birthday party one year ago this past Sunday. What I saw has made my heart sink. I'm not where I wanted to be. I do see subtle changes, but not in the way I had hoped. Yeah, my tummy isn't sticking out as far, but that double chin and the rolls still are a bigger mess than I really want to deal with.

Sure, I spent a lot of time dealing with pain and the inability to really move up until about May, but I haven't really had an excuse since then. Why am I still not working out now that it is October. Yes, my job has made me feel like a prisoner in my own house with the extremely long hours, but I'm still just as much to blame. Last night I wanted to go to the gym just to either walk laps in the pool, or walk on the treadmill for a bit, but I didn't. I turned on a movie and stayed on the couch. Wrong move.

I signed up for a kickboxing class (beginner, despite truly not being a beginner), but I haven't actually gone for my orientation, yet, due to my schedule. Again, still my fault. I can tell work that I have an appointment and I'll be back in an hour.

Self-care is important, and I need to remember that. I've been in this place before while I was in college and working as a live-in-caregiver, who didn't have any time off for myself. I wound up having a nervous breakdown while in that position, and here I am working the same type of hours. I need to remember what happened the last time.

The weight will come off, I need to remember that. I just need to remember that I have to take action in order to get it come off. Inaction does not do a thing to make it come off. And I need to remind myself of that.
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  • JUSTME29
    I always think it's funny when people say "oh, he/she works from home, it's not like a real job". When I was in elementary school, my dad started a business that he ran out of the basement and although he did have a great deal of flexibility in his schedule I've never met anyone as hard working as he was (and still is even though he is mostly retired now). I have a friend now that works from home and completely sets her own schedule, and people take advantage of her all the time expecting her to just go places with or do things for them during the times she would usually be working.

    On the other hand, working from home can be a huge advantage. You are putting in long hours, but like you said you could easily take an hour off to go workout and make up that time before/after normal work hours. If your job requires you to work regular office hours, then at least you are saving the commute time and can use that to get a workout in even if it's a simple walking video. It is hard to get up the gumption to go do "stuff" at the end of a workday though, I totally get that. I'm in the same boat - I could make the time, but I just don't.

    Let's both work to get some kind of activity in the next couple of days and see if it helps build momentum.
    474 days ago
    When I hit those "I just can't do it" modes, I walk for 10 minutes (just enough to register on the aerobic page of my pedometer). Usually, I find I've actually done 15. Anything to remind your body what it's supposed to be doing. Grant you, it helps I'm in an apartment building so I can walk the halls. But I also have an exercise bike and can do 10-15 on it without disturbing the neighbors.

    Do 10. More will follow.

    475 days ago
    There are so many challenges in getting healthy. Sometimes we are the biggest deterrent. My best advice, just take it slow. But, make an effort... even a small effort is better then none.
    475 days ago
    You can do it, stay positive.
    475 days ago
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