Thursday, September 27, 2018
My cousin, the personal trainer, just posted a couple quick second videos of a few of her workouts along with a couple of her snacks. I got sooo jealous because I havent been to the gym in almost a year. This year has just been nothing but stress and Ive just been to mentally tired to do the gym.
Yes I know I can just exercise here at home BUT, and thats a huge but, I dont have the space here to exercise. There is a spot in the door way from the hall to the living room but its tight. The living room is a big no because I take care of my grandma who has dementia and she currently cant walk by herself so we use the potty chair. Even with pads down we still get a mess sometimes. We clean it up off the carpet but still..
I've tried putting down covers but they move around. But the main reason why I want to exercise at the gym is because thats my escape. I never get to leave the house anymore. If we do go somewhere Im the one getting gram in and out of the car and it takes a lot out of me. I some times have to get behind her to pull her in. Last week we went out and I hurt my leg. It felt like the muscles twisted around my leg. Not a knot feeling but picture a candy cane and the red is the muscles. It was so tight I couldnt even sit on the couch with my legs crossed. The next day it was just a tight calf.
This year all together has just been horrible. My aunt is now working 2nd shift and it has affected my grams sleep schedule. Last night she was up all night watching TV. We cant turn it off because if we do she shakes the safety bar on her bed until we wake up. She just now went to sleep. I had to stop typing this up to help lay her down. I hope she sleeps for a good 4 hours so I can do some housework.
My goal today is to make it to the gym tonight. Yes it will be at midnight but that just means more machines for me.