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Pumpkin Spice and Chocolate Doughnuts vs. Clothes Sizes

Sunday, September 23, 2018

Yesterday, without intending to, I ate two pumpkin spice and one chocolate cake doughnut. I haven’t gone that overboard in eons! After the first one and a cup of black coffee while we were running errands, we came home, put away the groceries (good, healthy stuff) and headed out to do some more errands. We both needed more coffee and got more doughnuts because they were on sale if you bought 3. How silly.

The emotional back story: I’ve been reflecting on the almost 14 months since we moved here. My beloved stepmother died while we were in the air on move day, though I did not know it until the next day due to some cell phone issues. A coworker died suddenly during our Christmas break. One of my closest friends at work died earlier this year. I’ve been covering her desk since then, an honor, to be sure, but I wish things were different. We hired someone to take her place and she decided after 8 days that this was not for her, so it’s back to me. My estranged mother died the same day that John McCain died and that hit much harder than I could have guessed. Apart from everything else, the fact that we can never be reconciled hurts beyond measure. That hope is finally extinguished. Another coworker died over Labor Day weekend. We had no idea she had a terminal illness. Turns out it was pancreatic cancer, the same thing that killed my beloved stepmother. A very dear friend is dealing with serious health issues with her 90+ year old dad. There’s nothing I can do for her from the other side of the country and I hate that helpless feeling.

The financial backstory: when I lived in California, I worked two, sometimes three, jobs and had overtime at job #1. I don’t have that here. My housing costs have more than doubled, in a good way, but the wallet is too thin. I was living in a rent-controlled mobile home park and had long since paid for the mobile home, so it was artificially low for the Bay Area. But, the real estate pressures in the Bay Area are such that, the condo conversion of the mobile home park is being expedited and, once that is final, I would not have been able to afford to stay. Hence, the leap across country when I was given the chance to transfer (I am still paying for the move). My stepfather came to live with us about a month after we got here and he is, of course retired and has health issues. My partner worked for a short time after we got here and was laid off. He has looked for work somewhat sporadically, but has not been working for a while. I am stressed by the present and scared for the future. My partner wants to start a business and is looking to me for the start-up costs…………

Last week, I started walking again (baby steps). Tuesday, the goal was 5K. I missed it by 64 steps. Wednesday, my goal was 5200 + the 64. I exceed that. Thursday, the goal was 5400 and I missed it by about 374. My goal Friday was 5700 and I walked almost 6500. There’s an asterisk, though. FitBit has never accurately captured my steps. I have an exceedingly short stride, so it does not count some steps. I’ve tested this.

Yesterday, we stopped down the street at an “Estate Sale” and learned that, despite the posted hours, the place was packed before the start time and the item I most needed was sold! In a way, it was kind of sad. There was a hospital bed in one of the bedrooms and the house contents were old and of poor quality (at least what was left). I don’t know if the person hosting the sale was a family member or not, but he spent the entire time on the phone talking about unmentionable topics. The house was really cute. It had been chopped up during some remodeling, so it was a bit of a maze, but, as they say, it has good bones. What I LOVED was that it had a separate small kitchen for canning. What an awesome idea! Adding that to the list of remodeling ideas…(some day)

Later in the day, we stumbled across another Estate Sale in a different part of town. Very nice furniture, but nothing I could afford. I am looking for a bed for my office/guest room and need a really good deal. I would not buy it except that my best friend is arriving on New Year’s Eve for a week. We found a power washer worth $300 for $15. He was happy about it! I found a ceramic spice bottle set for $3. Now I can have cinnamon, turmeric, pepper at my desk for coffee and lunches! Neat and space-saving…This house was really cluttered. I am inspired to winnow out, not that there’s much left since we moved and left so much behind, but I don’t want my relatives to have to deal with that kind of a mess after I am gone.
Mondays are my long day. I will be racking up the steps again!

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    Holiday food is a big trap for me too, but if you have started walking again, good for you. I would have exercised today, but i needed the rest and I am wearing the last clean clothes I own. I sweat so hard I need to change my clothes after exercise. Wearing same clothes tomorrow to do my laundry! We all have our little snags, but I am sure you will pull through.

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    Great to get a score on the power washer! I ate a smile cookie from a donut shop because it was for charity. You are doing great considering. Keep up the great work!
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