"Start living now. Stop saving the good china for that special occasion. Stop withholding your love until that special person materializes. Every day you are alive is a special occasion. Every minute, every breath, is a gift from God." (Mary Manin Morrissey)
Hello my lovely friends!
Today is a brand new day and there is no perfect time than right now to move forward and get my life back on the road because it’s been hanging around on a broken down road waiting for something. I believe that we all go through those dark times in our lives and we want a way out and know what we need to do, but take forever to do it. We call it hitting rock bottom for a reason, but sometimes we stew in the rock bottom for some time.
I’m pretty sure that this past week changed things for me and I’m ready to move beyond where I’m at right now. Sitting around doing nothing for days just made me think about what I’m doing and if I stay on this road what may happen and I do not want to continue this way. I know that I have to let my Mom deal with things on her own and I have to do the same, but I do hate watching her in her pain.
My plan for this week is to wake up earlier than what I’ve been doing. If I get too much sleep I become lazy and this past week is proof of that. I’m going to set my alarm to get up and actually get up. If my Mom wants to stay in and sleep she is more than welcome to, but I’m getting up. I need to start getting my bedroom organized because I still have boxes here and there. My makeup drawers have never been organized, I just put stuff in there. Its those little things that have created chaos in my life. I think getting my bedroom together is a start. I still have the normal mowing the yard and all that, but I want to get things back on track in the house. Remember when the fridge died and we brought the one from the basement up? It’s still in the same place. I keep telling myself once I decide where I want to put it I’ll move it, but it really should be moved no matter what.
Around 4A.M., my Mom woke me up because she said she needed my help. She gets vertigo and it takes her out of commission for days. We were up for about two hours because it made her sick. Now she is resting and I’m trying to get a lot of stuff done around the house. I imagine this will go on for a couple of days. She’ll probably stay upstairs and I’ll bring her food up to her. It’s a good thing we have some TV trays.
A huge hug to you all for your support and suggestions, thank you! You all really have some great advice on what to do and how to get my Mom out of her hole. One thing I thought of was to get her to write down three good/positive things in her day. This way her focus is on what is good instead of how bad things are.
Also, asking for prayers because my Grandpa broke three ribs trying to chop wood. He fell back and the wood fell on him. I think he has finally realized his 95, I believe and he can’t do all that stuff. He is on pain meds, but is back at home. We’re going to see him on Tuesday depending on how my Mom is to see how things are.