Sunday, September 16, 2018
It will get better. That is what I keep telling myself. My mind is racing around in circles. It is hard to process a break-up after 3 very bumpy very good but many more very bad moments. I'm not seemingly letting this go. I think it is part of the process, but it is hard. I'm so sad today. I don't want to be at work, nor home, nor anywhere. I know this is for the best, but those great moments keep popping up. I think maybe the bad wasn't that bad. The worst part is that I still think this knowing she cheated on me and left me when I was in a bad depression then blamed me for her leaving. I feel like there is something wrong with me for missing her, worrying about her and still wanting to see her. I won't it's not a healthy relationship-- but the desire is still there and it's strong. Any advise, similar experience. Is there something really wrong with me. My therapist says no, but it's hard to believe.