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Sunday, September 16, 2018

Hi All,

It will get better. That is what I keep telling myself. My mind is racing around in circles. It is hard to process a break-up after 3 very bumpy very good but many more very bad moments. I'm not seemingly letting this go. I think it is part of the process, but it is hard. I'm so sad today. I don't want to be at work, nor home, nor anywhere. I know this is for the best, but those great moments keep popping up. I think maybe the bad wasn't that bad. The worst part is that I still think this knowing she cheated on me and left me when I was in a bad depression then blamed me for her leaving. I feel like there is something wrong with me for missing her, worrying about her and still wanting to see her. I won't it's not a healthy relationship-- but the desire is still there and it's strong. Any advise, similar experience. Is there something really wrong with me. My therapist says no, but it's hard to believe.

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    Oh, I'm so sorry. I concur with @firebrthr. Hang in there. emoticon
    153 days ago
    What you're feeling isn't bad or wrong. It doesn't make you crazy. You're human. You were with someone you loved for 3yrs. It will be a while of mourning and anger on your part. Its a process to go through and it hurts a lot but you WILL survive it.
    154 days ago
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