(My fiancé and biggest support, Gabriel)
It’s been a long time! My therapist has been encouraging me to journal, and I thought I might as well do it here where I can find some support and (maybe?) inspire someone else. I have a lot of fond memories of blogging here. I hope my old sparkfriends are still around!
I just had back surgery for a herniated disc. It has left me stuck in my apartment for a month (this is week 3). So far this year my mobility has been limited but I was swimming until it got too bad... now I will be able to start swimming again around week 6 (hurray!). So, for now I need to just focus on my diet until then.
Since my last blog... it’s been mostly working, struggling with binge eating, back pain, diabetes... I’ve gained and lost the same 30 lb a few times. I’m really ready to recommit to this weight loss journey and see how much progress I can make before the end of the year.
Current weight: 405 ish
Goal for this week: get down to where my scale can actually weigh me again (it goes to about 402 lb).
How I will accomplish this: I’m restarting a very low carb diet (with my doctor’s permission); it’s basically keto with some exceptions for carrots and low-sugar fruit.
Mid term? I want to be back in the 370’s by the end of the year. That’s a place I haven’t been in 2 years.
Long term? I need to be able to be more active. I’m tired of carrying around this extra weight. I want to be able to just do fun things and go out without worrying about how much walking will be involved. I want to live a long life, and I want to get my diabetes under control, so I’m not damaging my body anymore.
I can see myself at 370. That’s a start. I’ve never been below about 330 since high school, so I can’t see myself there yet... but I will just take this one step at a time and focus on my first short term goal.
For people who might be following my personal life: my fiancé in Argentina is coming to live with me :) we’re doing the K-1 visa process now. I’ve been at my job for a year now and I love it. I’m planning a wedding for October 6, 2019! Things are really looking good for me — I just need to get my health on track. I want to be able to fit in my dream dress, and to enjoy my special day and my new life with my future husband.
I know I can do this!