Friday, September 14, 2018
I came across something from July 29, 2009. I do think about it from time to time but I thought I would share it. I changed the SN in case they are still in use. At the time they were both my friends.
"dude": Vicky and Jack getting together are about as likely as Vicky and Oboma...
"girl": Why is that?
"dude": Same reason for Tom>> Jake wants a normal good looking girl... Vivkie would be undesirable to him..
"girl": So Vicky isnt a normal good looking girl?
"dude": She is not what society in general would lable as a attractive girl... no
"girl": Well what if her diet works and she drops the weight. Will she fit that label then?
"dude": Don't know... I doubt it... she would need plastic surgery as well....
At the time I was pissed because I thought I could trust him. I told him a lot of things. About how I was hurt by people I trusted. My friend sent me this message and when I asked him about it he never said sorry or tried to explain anything. He was pissed that she showed me the convo.
I am a little upset with myself because this should have been a little push for me to drop the weight so that I could shove it in his face. I know I shouldnt be doing this for him but for myself. 10 years and I am still the same weight...
I know Im not trying hard enough. There is no discipline was so ever. Today is almost over so tomorrow Im going to be smart. I need to start tracking my days. What I eat and drink. How active I was. Im tired of this and it needs to stop!