For the 3pts but also because I had a realization

As I was doing some dance cardio today I found that I had a thought that I'm scared if becoming thinner, more athletic because I've never seen myself that way. Since 10 I've had a belly and back then everyone thought it was so cute. At 12 I put on a good amount of weight but by 13, through diet change and LOTS of working out I had lost it. I went from 196 @12 to 156@13. A few years later I was asked to put on some weight for aesthetics and I obliged. A few months later I started dating a person that was comfy being obese and I began to eat like him and do less active things. I got a car thus I walked less and boy did I gain some mass. I realized that since the beginning of someone asking me to put on a few, I've been using the additional weight as a comfort and a buffer from others:( Oh man. Im glad that I realize this. Now that I'm single again, I am determined to learn more about myself and my journey thus far so I create a personality fully of my own; one which is unwaivering once in a relationship. I don't want to sacrifice my happiness, health, workout/athleticism, and weightloss for anyone. I only want to date others that either workout regularly or will be committed to doing active activities with me. No more couch potatoes for me or of them! It no longer fits with my lifestyle and life choices...and that's alright:).