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Am I Really a (Gulp) Beginner?

Thursday, August 23, 2018

I started to really think about this. It really has been over two years since I've put the pedal to the metal for my workouts. I mean, come on, think about it. My back injury occurred on October 1, 2016, and it is August 23, 2018. I only started to really start feeling healthy again in May of this year (2018).

So, why do I say that I'm a beginner? I mean, I've been a competitive endurance swimmer, cycled for hours on end, tackled the elliptical like it was a walk in the park, and have mastered kickboxing and Zumba. So, what changed?

What changed was that my body became sedentary and weak for way too long. My muscles forgot what it takes to perform their basic tasks. I mean, I can't do more than 10 minutes on the elliptical without feeling like I'm going to die anymore, when I used to get 45 minutes and barely break a sweat. The only thing I am able to really do is general swimming, and that is while at my parents and I'm not going to be breaking any records with what I've been doing there.

I've thought about hiring personal trainer, but I don't think form is my issue. I think endurance is my biggest problem right now. And I'm not even sure where to start. I actually think my biggest hurdle is fear.

The gym is within walking distance. I can actually see it from the end of my driveway just over the tree line. There is a 3 lane pool and a full array of cardio, conditioning, and cardio equipment, as well as classes. I want to go to the pool and work on building my endurance again. But the other swimmers are actually quite rude when you are just starting out. And that is quite discouraging. In fact, it hurts.

I just want to succeed again. And I need to find a way to do that. But I have to first realize I can't just jump in at the same place where I left off. I have to go back to the starting gate and start over again. And it is a bit of an embarrassment, since I have reached so many milestones in the past. But I did reach milestones. And I can reach them again.

I know I can.
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    I've stopped and restarted with swimming soooooo many times I can't begin to count on them!!! Yes, serious swimmers get frustrated, but I know ill improve soon enough. Everyone starts(restarts) and woohoo on it!!

    You can do it!!
    512 days ago
    emoticon Any loss of progress always sucks but the thing about it is that it can always be regained. Sorry to hear that the people at the pool are mean but hey just do you and don't mind them. emoticon emoticon
    513 days ago
    You got this. Just start. I would think swimming would be your place to start back for endurance. Ignore the inconsiderate people in pool. Your health is just as important as theirs is. People can be so rude.
    513 days ago
    You can do this. I was thinking the same thing yesterday. For about 2 years I’ve been plagued with health problems. The same girl who could bike 200 miles in a day struggled to do 35 yesterday. I was slow too. Thankfully my friends are very supportive. Never giving up...and you shouldn’t either. Fight your way back!
    514 days ago
    Yes, you can do this--doesn't matter where you start.
    514 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    Maybe if you adjust your time for the gym you might find kinder swimmers or an empty lane? I've been on both sides of that equation - the one not wanting to share my limited space, and the one just starting out and trying to make a space. Neither is much fun, but there's no need to be unkind to the newcomers. You won't be a beginner for long, but I agree that starting over can be discouraging.
    514 days ago
    Of course you can do it. Just dive in a lane and start swimming. If someone is rude, just say something kind back to them and that should shut them up. You won't be a "beginner" once you get wet. You're endurance will be back before you know it. Have faith.
    514 days ago
  • no profile photo EVIE4NOW
    Why not ask them why they are being rude? Sometimes shock treatment works.
    514 days ago
    I know you can too!!
    514 days ago
    be kinder to yourself. look at yourself as a friend who has been through a lot and you want to encourage, to get healthier. you would be more encouraging to her, you wouldn't judge her, you would just be there for her.
    NO one knows the struggles you went through during a back injury and things take time to heal. so just look at where you were 18 months ago.... what you are dong is progress, take it from there. You wiil get to where you need to be give it time
    514 days ago
    I know what you mean about how the faster swimmers are rude to those of us who aren't. Our pools do have separate lanes for the different speeds but sometimes there's someone who really should be in the next lane. Talk to the lifeguards.

    Just remember: You won't always be a beginner plus you won't be a beginner for as long as someone who is truly just starting out. Your muscles will remember.

    514 days ago
  • JUNETTA2002
    You can reach your goals. Thanks for sharing.
    514 days ago
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