Am I Really a (Gulp) Beginner?
Thursday, August 23, 2018
I started to really think about this. It really has been over two years since I've put the pedal to the metal for my workouts. I mean, come on, think about it. My back injury occurred on October 1, 2016, and it is August 23, 2018. I only started to really start feeling healthy again in May of this year (2018).
So, why do I say that I'm a beginner? I mean, I've been a competitive endurance swimmer, cycled for hours on end, tackled the elliptical like it was a walk in the park, and have mastered kickboxing and Zumba. So, what changed?
What changed was that my body became sedentary and weak for way too long. My muscles forgot what it takes to perform their basic tasks. I mean, I can't do more than 10 minutes on the elliptical without feeling like I'm going to die anymore, when I used to get 45 minutes and barely break a sweat. The only thing I am able to really do is general swimming, and that is while at my parents and I'm not going to be breaking any records with what I've been doing there.
I've thought about hiring personal trainer, but I don't think form is my issue. I think endurance is my biggest problem right now. And I'm not even sure where to start. I actually think my biggest hurdle is fear.
The gym is within walking distance. I can actually see it from the end of my driveway just over the tree line. There is a 3 lane pool and a full array of cardio, conditioning, and cardio equipment, as well as classes. I want to go to the pool and work on building my endurance again. But the other swimmers are actually quite rude when you are just starting out. And that is quite discouraging. In fact, it hurts.
I just want to succeed again. And I need to find a way to do that. But I have to first realize I can't just jump in at the same place where I left off. I have to go back to the starting gate and start over again. And it is a bit of an embarrassment, since I have reached so many milestones in the past. But I did reach milestones. And I can reach them again.
I know I can.