This Week Hasn't Gone Like I Planned
Friday, August 17, 2018
It wasn't a total washout, because I've gotten exercise and I've been drinking the right amount of water. I finish the coursework for my class today, and I've been good about setting schedules and sticking to them. But the week still hasn't looked like I want it to look. The stress of starting a new course and getting worrying news about my mom built up until I slipped back into the old bad habits. Yesterday I ate everything in sight. I didn't want to do that! I keep trying and trying to get past old habits, but I've never managed to get past them permanently. I'm terrible at making permanent changes. Or, ok, I haven't been able to do it yet. I know I'll never be a perfect person, because no one is, but a few permanent victories would be nice. I've tried to change my attitude, I've tried to be realistic, I've tried to focus on the reasons why I need to get healthier. Where do I find the thing that will work for me? How do I make this permanent when it's so freaking hard?