This blog is an apology to my SparkFriends to say I'm sorry I have not been participating on SparkPeople very much the past month or so. I am sorry I haven't been "liking" your achievements and activities, posting comments on your blogs, thanking you for goodies or posts on my page, answering emails, or participating on Teams.
I feel so bad about that, because I know how it can get annoying or disheartening to reach out to a SparkFriend and get no reply in return. You wonder what is happening with the other person, and if they are just ignoring you, or if you said something wrong, or if they are going through something serious, etc. So, I wanted to write this blog to explain to any SparkFriends who may be wondering about me. I had a really good streak going...I had logged into Spark every day for 500 days, and got that award. But the past six weeks or so have been a real struggle for me, and I had to let some things go.
Many of my SparkFriends know that I suffer with migraines, and one trigger that I cannot control is the weather. I get a migraine every time it rains (or snows). Well, this has been the summer from hell for me. We have had week after week of rainy days, starting in July. The normal amount of rainfall from June 1 to August 4 in my area is 8.6 inches, and this year we have had more than double, at 18.8 inches! We even broke a record for the wettest year so far, breaking a record set in 1972 when hurricane Agnes caused massive flooding. The rain this summer is from nearly daily storms moving through, not a hurricane. And there are no signs of this weather pattern stopping, as there is a chance of rain practically every day for the next week.
So, for me this means almost daily migraines. It has been really difficult. I am thankful that I have some prescription medication that helps, as it lessens the pain and nausea, but not entirely. Also, when I take the meds, I can't drive or do my work as efficiently (working from home). I can somewhat function, but definitely not at a normal level. The best way I can describe it is to imagine going through your day while trying to balance a heavy brick perched on your forehead while you have tunnel vision. So I get behind with everything. I'm still sensitive to light and sounds, so I put off any housework that is "loud" like running the dishwasher, vacuuming, doing laundry, or running the paper shredder. The few days when it doesn't rain and I don't have a migraine, I have to scramble to get groceries and run errands, try to catch up with house work, etc.
On top of all of this, my hubby had a health scare the past few weeks, so that involved lots of doctor visits, blood tests, an ultrasound, etc. It seemed quite serious at first, but now we *think* it will be okay. There will be some more testing ahead, and so it is ongoing, but fingers crossed about that.
Needless to say, I suppose, but my summer goals are out the window. I'm not even going to pretend that they are a priority for me at the moment. I've always felt like migraines were a chronic illness and they impaired me a bit from normal functioning, but usually just a day or two a week. Even at that level they are enough to keep me feeling chronically behind with everything. But this summer, with rain every single day for weeks on end (maybe one non-rainy day out of 12 or so), has really brought me down, and I had to let everything go that wasn't mandatory. I'm happy that I'm maintaining my weight where I am, and that's okay for now. I'm also trying to work on my mental outlook. I'm feeling a bit depressed. Really, summer is usually a time of fun, doing things with friends, getting outside...and I have spent the last six weeks inside and haven't done anything fun. At this point, a day without pain when I can get to the grocery store is a really fun day!
I hope to Spark when I feel up to it, and I miss all my SparkFriends. I hope you understand, and know that I am thinking of you and cheering you on, with all your achievements and goals. With my poor brain in such a state, I don't feel like I can think clearly to form any good advice for anyone at the moment, but I want you to know I care. Know you don't have to comment on this blog, as I may not get a chance to thank you for a bit. I sure hope this weather pattern ends soon. Even after that it may take me a month to catch up with things in "real" life, but...all I can do is take it a day at a time.
Also...a quick mention to those dealing with wildfires out West...I am so sorry for you! I can only imagine how frightening that is. I am sure you wish you had our rain, and I certainly do too...I'd love to send it to you.
Have a good weekend, everyone, and thanks for reading.