A Visit to the Doctor
Monday, July 30, 2018
Annual checkup with the doctor today. Here's about how it went.
"I see that your weight is 162 today."
"Yeah, I'm not happy about that. I just got back from vacation..."
"Last year, your weight was 158."
"And in 2016, you weighed 153. It looks like you are consistently gaining five pounds each year."
"Oh, man. Yeah. I know I should be exercising more...and my eating is really out of control..."
"See, I'm an all-or-nothing kind of person. I sometimes have a great plan -- like to take a 20-mile bike ride -- but then it just seems like too much work."
"Is it that you're physically too tired, or is it motivation?"
"It's completely motivation." (At this point, my eyes are starting to fill with tears, but I'm determined not to cry.) "I know what I need to do; I just can't get it done. Like, I'll be really good for a few days, and then I'm eating cookies non-stop or treating myself to a 1000-calorie sundae. I just can't get the weight off!"
"Don't make it about weight. Make it about habits, and the weight will come off on its own. What are the habits that you want to change?"
And so I've put them into my phone and will copy them here:
1. 1200-1500 calories a day within ranges. No exceptions. Done.
2. Establish a daily habit of exercise, even if it's just 10 minutes.
3. Take care of the mental health through positive self-talk, prayer, and meditation.
I feel awful. But is this truly my rock bottom? Am I really ready to battle every day?