July 12, 2018
Friday, July 13, 2018
Many people never see what I do. I see death every single day. I see people who have been sick a long time and old people transition to the other side, that is comforting to me because they are no longer suffering and they are supposed to die, we all do eventually. However, lately I have taken care of many people less than 50, who are super sick, close to dying and it really has hit home for me. The realization is that it could be me. I'm 46, I grew up eating fast food, I'm overweight, I don't exercise much. The only saving grace is that I have good Gene's, chronic disease doesn't run in the family.
But you add all of that up and I could be next. I see the ugly side to being sick, I see young people who are in/out of the hospital because they don't take care of themselves, because they don't care, not because they can't. I see the complications, the limited autonomy, the being confined and not being able to even walk the halls without assistance. (Not just the morbid obese patients) The long hospital stays, low quality of life and even long suffering death.
I am not judging, just realizing that I'm one of those people and if my lifestyle isn't changed, this could be a reality for me as well.
I wish I would have had my eyes opened sooner. You don't think about these things when your young.
I now have to reverse the damage I have done and that is soo hard. Losing weight is the hardest thing I have ever had to do and obviously I have failed many times.
So instead of focusing on the scale, I'm going to focus on my health by eating clean, staying away from fast food and moving more. It's essentially a matter of quality oflife and death.