Where am I?
Saturday, June 30, 2018
Hey there, Sparkfriends.
I'm still reading when I can. I'm still trying to live a healthy lifestyle and trying to remember that I Matter! That last one should have come first.
As I've begun physical therapy, and been mildly chastised (but I could tell they wanted to bean me on the head) by both the therapist and the assistant for not taking enough moments for myself...I realize that I've let myself matter less and less. But in weird ways.
So, I'm resuming my push to implement the things I KNOW are the right things to do, but consistently fail to do them.
That weight I'd taken off? Nearly all back on.
WW wasn't right for me as a vegetarian. But it doesn't mean I should have just thrown in the towel completely. Silly of me. And I MEAN to eat right every night, but then I don't.
Even last night...I sat there telling myself I wasn't going to go get a cookie from the treat bag I'd bought earlier in the day at the store. I bought a bag of delicious, but expensive tiny cookies. I purposely invested in them because I thought I'd savor each one, treasure it, and pace myself. Whew was I wrong! Snarfing them one by one...why did I? I have no explanation except that it's become my custom to snack my way through every night.
My plan I used to do is out the window for some life reasons. But I MUST find something that works. Something that doesn't end every night in, Oh wow, why did I do that?
So I'm off. I'm off to get some things accomplished. A cleaner to-do list will go a long way to ease my feelings of failure every night (my suspected cause of ridiculous overeating).
Take care of yourselves as you'd take care of a loved one! You Matter! (and I'm trying to do the same)