Regrouping and moving on
Tuesday, June 26, 2018
Man this life can be tough sometimes. If you let it, it will wear you down into a fine powder and the wind will carry the tiny particles of you away to places you never thought you'd be. Some particles of you will undoubtedly get lost and become apart of something or someone that you had not intentions of being part of. Fortunately, if ever life grinds you down and the wind takes you to these foreign places, you are still you even in the scatted form. Therefore, you can recoup, regroup, and reassemble yourself in whichever way you see fit to withstand, overcome, or simple move out of that portion of life's way which wore you down in the first place. Sometimes we are shameful when we feel lost. Angry at ourselves, others, and sometimes at life because of what it throws at us and at the power which either we perceive to not have, misuse or give away. But anger alone solves nothing. I have found myself regrouping, reorganizing, and recentering after such a loss of myself and I am happier than I have been in years. Although I stopped at the anger place, I made sure that I unpacked as much baggage as I could find there before regrouping and carrying on to the next place or guilt. Guilt felt for not actualizing these feelings earlier. Guilt for not redirecting myself when I allowed others and the situations I allowed to transpire wear me down. Guilt that I had lost myself and was having trouble finding me again. As I processed, I left the baggage there at the guilt place too--as many as I could find. There have been a few more places that I have been as I've been riding this emotional rollercoaster of recentering but one thing that I am certain to do is anytime any bags resurface, I make sure that I send them on the express class to the proper place so they don't wear me out anymore. The bags I carried were too heavy and took up too much space in my life. My journey of happiness need only have them in the distant memory, not regrouped and a daily part of me.