Thursday, June 14, 2018
One of the things I'm learning, is that I have to incorporate goals into my lifestyle. I've never been that person. It's never been impressed upon me to create goals for myself. A few of my siblings have that natural "Go-getter" mentality, but unfortunately, that gene missed me. Its something I admire in them greatly. I have a journal that I have decided to make my goal book. It's not going to just have weight goals, but more importantly, its going to have goals of things that I want to do, that I can't do, or can't do well. Like- going on a rollercoaster. I haven't been on a rollercoaster in years, and I don't even dare to try, now, for fear of embarrassment of not fitting into the seat. I want my seatbelt in my car to fit more comfortably. I want to fly on planes and not have to worry about whether or not I'll be able to use the regular seatbelt on the flight, or if I'll have to ask for a seatbelt extender... I have never had to use one, but I also haven't been on a flight, since I gained so much weight back. I want to be able to go running one day-- just to see what all the hype is about, ha ha. I have a very good friend who is an avid runner and every year she comes down here for a run. One year, I will go with her.
I wish I was the type of person who naturally is goal-oriented or who likes to challenge herself-- but I'm going to become one. I have to make these changes in order to make this journey something that just isn't "eating right and exercise". I'm working on finding my motivations. Other people seem to feel "guilty" about certain things (in the lazy lifestyle). I do not-- and I guess that's a problem, ha ha. Other people get down on themselves for "wasting a weekend in bed"-- but with the job I have, I need that time for de-stressing. I want working out to be a de-stressor, but so far, it isn't. I just have to keep plugging away, going against my natural proclivities to be a better me. I'm up for the challenge.
On another note: I'm going to be putting in most of my foods in the tracker, myself. I made the mistake of taking for granted that my lunch (today) was accurate to what the pre-added version was in the nutrition log. When I went to the Chipotle website, I had a rude awakening, lol. The good part was, I just modified what I had for dinner, and was able to stay within my ranges. Whew! This is going to be hard (again)… but I have to do this for me.