Every Day Grateful
Thursday, June 14, 2018
Today I am grateful for a friend who departed this plane 9 years ago. She was on my mind as I shopped for clothing today. We used to do that as teenagers together. I believe today would have been her 54th birthday.
I was also thankful for an empty dishwasher. We don't have a set schedule of chores at our house, so we all need to pitch in on a regular basis to keep things moving. Tidy is another matter entirely, and escapes us for the most part ...
The mile outside was a pipe dream. I thought I might take it "before it gets hot" - I've got a few days off work - but it was already into the 90's ("feels like" 98). Feh. Maybe tomorrow.
I chose to sleep rather than workout this morning. I am using the fitness I've earned to wash bedding today. This involves many trips up and down stairs.
I imbued shopping for clothes with love. It made me realistic about what I needed and what I would use, and gave me something of an inoculation against sale 'prices' and 'deals', which did not provide what I needed or wanted. Maybe someday I'll get myself those aloe-infused socks ...
How can I move forward in this moment?
I don't know. While moving is a joy to me, and I can find exercise embraceable, my compliance to a healthy diet and not over-eating is sketchy. Plant paradox served me well for over a month, eat the rainbow is nice (I've done it more days in a row than ever before - 13 - but then I missed "green" yesterday)...I'm not sure where I'm headed next. It seems like I'm interested in something, it's easy, and then I inexplicably can't do it anymore. What's up with that?
Do I want to be looser with my eating or do I want to be thinner? I don't know, and I can't have it both ways.