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Thursday, June 14, 2018

I don't know why we hold ourselves up to "achievable" goals if only we try harder, were not so weak, if we only really tried etc. But most of us seem to. I resent feeling I can't eat out because of the calories in even healthy choices. I know I have a lot of weight to lose. A lot! I want to be able to connect with the now and enjoy it. It is the only time I have. I know and am working on loving and accepting myself more. Trying to find time to do some of the things I love more often.

. My weight limited what I could physically do. Things I have always enjoyed doing at the beach Walking across the soft sand to get to the water.Walking in the shallows shelling. Feeling confident in my strength to be in the water. Just walking up and down the beach. This is me sitting because it was too tiring to stand and getting up from the sand required an embarrassing amount of help.
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This made me angry with myself. I had not realized how much I could not do. It made me sad that I was in this physical shape. It also has given me a fire to be able to enjoy the beach more the next time we go. I have a goal month and a desire to be more fit. It that includes weight coming off great. But I will be stronger and better able to cross that sand, To walk on it, have better balance and stamina. I will be able to do more next fall. The next time. So I am working out with more gusto. Tracking my food more honestly.
I am also finding that some of my chronic pain issues are improving with this renewal of effort.. I feel happier with myself in general. I do relapse when I don't "measure up". I still need to work on that self shaming issue.
So here's to you and me liking us and enjoying our now. We deserve it
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  • SPICY23
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    Cutting ourselves down is not the path to improvement. Building ourselves up, encouraging further effort will benefit so much more. You are worth it! Be kind to yourself.

    Peace and Care
    130 days ago
  • EDLEAR
    renewed purpose! A great motivator. emoticon
    I believe that you have the willpower and inner strength to do what you really really want to do. I wish you well. emoticon
    130 days ago
  • IMUSTLOSEIT1
    My buddy and I are making MISSIONS, like doing things in the house that we procrastinate about. It make us responsible for our tasks of the day. For me it is not about what I eat, it is about moving, and keep moving, it would be really easy to just sit here and wallow in the things I can't do anymore. Like you I also am finding that my weight is crippling me and I have to do something, or sitting is all I will be able to do. I hate structured exercise, even walking, but cleaning and such at least gets me up. lol Maybe one day I will be able to walk that mile, and go up those stairs without being exhausted. So if you need a buddy, I will be there. lol always have been.
    130 days ago
  • GRANDMASUSAN13
    You can do this
    130 days ago
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