Today I Start Again
Wednesday, June 06, 2018
The last time I was here I was hoping to get my act together and lose weight before retirement. That didn't happen. I guess the one saving grace is that my weight has topped out and has been stable for quite a while. It's just 30 lbs more than I'd like it to be. I'm back on blood pressure medication, too.
Yesterday I felt too big for my skin. Do you have days like that? Not only do your clothes feel tight, but you're just hyper-aware of how big and lumpy you are. I've been thinking about it, now that I've learned that retirement has not magically caused me to lose weight. No really, I hoped it would! The fact is, the only way I have successfully lost weight in the long term is by logging my food intake. I hate it. It's time consuming and I feel like it causes me to obsess even more than usual about food. BUT IT'S THE ONLY THING THAT WORKS FOR ME.
So here I am. I hate that I have to log my food. I hate that no matter how little I eat, I'll likely only lose a half a pound a week and it will take forever to see results. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. But I hate how I felt yesterday worse.