So Many Emotions About Having Gastric Sleeve Surgery! Have You Been There, Done That?

Monday, June 04, 2018

I started the program to be approved for gastric sleeve surgery almost two years ago. A number of events prevented me from completing the program...mainly ME. I can say it had something to do with getting sidetracked by life (the program coordinator left, I ended up having laproscopy surgery for a meniscus tear on my knee and found I have full bone-on-bone arthritis on that knee, moved to another place, etc. etc.) but when it comes right down to it, I got within five pounds of my goal weight and ran off the rails. I gave up.

Part of me feels I sabotaged myself by doing this--that on some level I either felt I didn't deserve it or was just scared. Scared of what? I'm not entirely sure. Maybe I was scared that the changes I will need to endure--for a lifetime, no less--would be so hard and I wondered if I could really do it. I don't exactly know why I feel such an array of emotions from excited to scared.

I mentioned the surgery to my son the other day and he was taken aback that I would have someone remove two-thirds of my stomach in order to lose weight. He said I could do it without surgery and that why would I want someone to remove a natural part of my body? I said, "Son, I'm getting older and it's harder to even move. This surgery could give me a better quality of life."

That's sort of when it hit me that I'm more doing this for health benefits than to fit into a smaller size. I've never been a vain person or a high-maintenance kind of gal. The bottom line is that this is for me. Yes, I'm a little scared. Maybe even more than a little scared. I talked to my provider about this and she said of course it is normal--it's major surgery and that she would be more concerned if I didn't have any worries.

It's a big deal. I have lost 5 of 15 pounds that I am required to lose to move forward with the program. Have any of you been through this?
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    Thank you, Carrie! I am doing more and more research and just continuing on to see where I land. You can never have enough information, right?
    903 days ago
    It just may be that you are not emotionally ready! Take your time and lose the weight you have to then re- access. It may not be time even then. TIME !
    905 days ago
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