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Huh... I forgot my maintenance anniversary

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Who would have thought the date could ever escape me for its importance? Almost exactly 2 years from the day I joined Sparkpeople I reached my goal weight. I can remember the elation of being 50% of my former self... of touching the goal post as it were. That magic number ended up being about 7-8 pounds too low to be healthy and sustainable, but I reached it dadgumit! I regained a bit about 3 years ago I think, but I took it right back off again, and it was a learning experience. (And I gained some with the death of my mother... all that "comfort" food!) But, in all, I have stayed with a 10-12 pound range. That is acceptable to me. My brain hasn't completely caught up to reality even yet though. I had on a dress with red, horizontal stripes the other day, and thought I looked "chubby" in it. Uh, no. I had to go back and look at where I started from when I was over 300 pounds to get my brain back into perspective. Self perception is so bizarre. When you see a tall, slender woman... I see a clutzy, fat woman. Which is true? Well, I used to be right, but now I am wrong, wrong, wrong! But my brain persists in thinking the first thought first... and then it hears what someone else says, and goes... oh yeah, I am not obese anymore... But it takes a beat of time, or an external comment or perspective to jerk me out of the old patterns... still... after 5 years!

Sign ups are going on for the Summer 5% challenge... This is an ACTIVE team... and the 5% is a goal to shoot for (not a requirement), in case anyone was wondering. I still join even though I am in maintenance, because it keeps me accountable to a certain level (at my own choosing) of fitness, and the Living the Good Life challenges are good reminders of healthy habits I may have let slip by the wayside over the course of several years.

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    Self perception can be a tricky thing. I think you look fantastic! You see your flaws but everyone else sees a beautiful woman inside and out! You should be proud of what you have accomplished, Congratulations! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    174 days ago
    You are tall and beautiful!
    175 days ago
    I don’t have any full size mirrors in the house. I think I need one. I rarely look at myself beyond making sure my hair looks OK & that I don’t have food on myself before I go out. I learned in my morbidly obese days to not really look at myself.
    175 days ago
    Congratulations on your maintenance anniversary.
    175 days ago
    I understand what you mean about self perception. I see myself as fat way more often than I do as normal. And I also think of it as temporary even though it's more than a year of maintaining. Sigh.
    175 days ago
    Thanks for sharing such personal experiences. I never would have guessed that you were wondering whether you were slender enough for that dress! I thought you were just wondering if it was your style. Oh, beloved, if we could only see ourselves through the eyes of the people who adore us. Wouldn't THAT be a relief!?
    175 days ago
    OH for sure, I am not sure if the brain EVER totally catches up to losing 50% of yourself . . . I did that too, and there are times I feel just like you . . . that I'm the OLD me. It'll pass! And congratulations!
    175 days ago
    You have really accomplished a lot and should be proud . Congrats!
    175 days ago
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    It’s great to remind yourself how far you’ve come and how great you look. You have done remarkable work and should be incredibly proud of yourself! emoticon
    175 days ago
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