Huh... I forgot my maintenance anniversary
Tuesday, May 29, 2018
Who would have thought the date could ever escape me for its importance? Almost exactly 2 years from the day I joined Sparkpeople I reached my goal weight. I can remember the elation of being 50% of my former self... of touching the goal post as it were. That magic number ended up being about 7-8 pounds too low to be healthy and sustainable, but I reached it dadgumit! I regained a bit about 3 years ago I think, but I took it right back off again, and it was a learning experience. (And I gained some with the death of my mother... all that "comfort" food!) But, in all, I have stayed with a 10-12 pound range. That is acceptable to me. My brain hasn't completely caught up to reality even yet though. I had on a dress with red, horizontal stripes the other day, and thought I looked "chubby" in it. Uh, no. I had to go back and look at where I started from when I was over 300 pounds to get my brain back into perspective. Self perception is so bizarre. When you see a tall, slender woman... I see a clutzy, fat woman. Which is true? Well, I used to be right, but now I am wrong, wrong, wrong! But my brain persists in thinking the first thought first... and then it hears what someone else says, and goes... oh yeah, I am not obese anymore... But it takes a beat of time, or an external comment or perspective to jerk me out of the old patterns... still... after 5 years!
Sign ups are going on for the Summer 5% challenge... This is an ACTIVE team... and the 5% is a goal to shoot for (not a requirement), in case anyone was wondering. I still join even though I am in maintenance, because it keeps me accountable to a certain level (at my own choosing) of fitness, and the Living the Good Life challenges are good reminders of healthy habits I may have let slip by the wayside over the course of several years.